Day 18 — Daily Bread

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Psalms & Proverbs

Psalm 13 (NKJV)

Reflections

Ruvim Balan · Sep 22, 2026 · edited

In Genesis 43:11 and also 14; Israel is in a trial of having to give up his son Benjamin to get some food. And he was afraid, but he said, “If it must be so…” that his sons be taken away from him. And yet again in v.14: “If I am bereaved of my children, I am bereaved.” He looked at what he had and was ready to lose his children for the sake of God’s promise because it was the only way to survive.
In Matthew 18:3; Jesus tells the disciples that they must be like children to enter into the Kingdom of God.

I have 2 little siblings. And one thing I noticed about them, is that they can’t do much things on their own. You need to provide and make food for them, and even financially provide for them—as my parents do.

In Psalm 13; David cries out to God because he is being attacked by the enemy. And he cries out to God to hear him, and to just consider him and his life. To just briefly think about him and his faith growing trial at the time. But David at the end of the psalm trusts in God and how He has delivered him before, and blessed him where he’s at right now.

Take Away: The Devil had been attacking me for a long time, and also the past 2 days with Wet Dreams. And I’ve been crying out to God to free me from this, but sometimes he doesn’t, or it doesn’t seem like he’s even listening to me. And so I truly relate to David and how he was attacked in his sleep to where he called it, “The sleep of death.”
No matter how I pray against it, even trying to do the tabernacle prayer, but I don’t always get good sleep that night.
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and have a wet dream, and I also feel an evil presence in my house, so I get up and go pray against it until I feel peace in the house, which sometimes takes up to an hour. Even now as I write this on my phone, I fear of these attacks, for I will sleep soon. These are also not in my heart. I will be honest; sometimes I doubt that I will ever get free from this for I feel that everything that I ever did my whole life never worked out.

God is telling me that I need to trust in my deliverance that is already here, and that I need to depend on him to free me from this thorn in my side.

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