In Leviticus 18:30; when God tells Moses that he would tell the Israelites to not do the abominable customs of those before them. That they may not be unclean.
God never wanted them to separate himself from his people. It breaks God’s heart when we separate him from us by sinning, because he always wants to be with us, and never wants to leave our side.
In Mark 14:72; Peter denied Jesus the 3rd time and the rooster crowed, and Peter recognized that Jesus said that he will deny him 3 times. And Peter dropped down and wept.
God sees every sin we will soon commit.
In Psalm 30:9-10; David sings to God, and he tries to convince God to not keep him in Sheol. And he tries to convince God and ask him if the dust of the earth will worship him and tell of his faithfulness.
Take Away: God wants me so bad that he doesn’t want me to sin that it would separate him from me. He sees me when I sin and put something above him. It breaks his heart to see me do something that will cause him to separate myself from him. His heart cries when I blame him for the consequences of my sins. And how I try to justify myself and save my self by trying to convince God like David who tried to ask God if the Dust will speak of his great faithfulness. He already proved to me that he would die for my sins to reconcile me to him, but I don’t always look on the him on the cross.
God said to me: Ruvim, I don’t ever want to leave your side. I never want you to sin. Every second that you are in sin, my heart is crying. For I see your greatness and your future. I can’t Live without you. I want you to be with me, and for you to want to be with me. I am not ashamed of you, I am proud to be your father. I am proud of you. Everyday I am amazed at the work you do that day, and your submission to my spirit. I am so amazed at the Faith you bring forth, and the righteous thoughts you want to have. That you repent every time you notice that you have put something above me. I am so amazed at your purity and your desire for me. Ruvim, I LOVE YOU ❤️!!! I Love you to be my son. I am crazy for you. I am crazy for the praise that I will get from you from the heart. I promise you that I Love you. Ruvim, I hear you, you are not 1,000 miles away. Ruvim, I see when your heart drops because you’ve realized that you put something above me, I Love that about you. You are so sensitive to my spirit, and you hear my voice soo well, I love that about you. I Love that you notice things other people don’t notice. I Love how you just want to reflect me. I Love how you just want more of me.
James Bauman
· Oct 26, 2026
· Old Testament
· edited
Numbers 4.7-8 is really cool seeing the table of the bread of the presence being covered by a blue covering, called tekheleth, which represents holiness and presence of God. Then on top of the covering they would throw on all the dishes and things used for the sacrifices, and they would then cover it with a scarlet covering.
Seeing this is cool because it’s like the table, or design that God set is covered in perfect holiness, and we have our sin, sacrifices, and offerings that restore but still contaminate us from being in Gods perfect design, kind of like man’s offerings. And then it gets covered by a scarlet covering, representing the blood, which covers us fully and makes us pure and holy, blameless and without shame.
Ruvim Balan
· Oct 20, 2026
· New Testament
· edited
In Mark 10:47-48; A blind man hears Jesus, and in his need he cries out to Jesus to have mercy and heal him. Many many people rebuked him, but he continued to yell out to Jesus. Then Jesus heard him and called out to him. And when people saw that Jesus heard him, they told him to take heart, or in other words to have Faith. And He left his cloak that was comforting him, and he left it behind and sprung up and jumped to God. And when Jesus replied, he kindly asked for him to heal him. And Jesus didn’t touch him but Jesus just congratulated him that his faith has brought him healing. And was healed right away.
Take away: I know that many of you are praying for healing from something or freedom from something. God is telling you guys to not listen to the rebukes or the doubt if other people who are trying to oppress you because of their shamefulness of their sin in themselves. They are scared that God didn’t answer their prayer, but will answer your prayer. For when God will answer your prayer and show his glory to you, people will tell you to take heart or to Have Faith. And you can just ask God and he will heal you and free you, and reveal himself to you. THIS IS A SIGN THAT GOD HAS ANSWERED THAT PRAYER. HAVE FAITH IN WHAT GOD HAS PROMISED.
GOD IS CONGRATULATING YOU FOR HAVING ENOUGH FAITH IN YOUR PRAYERS.
In Mark 8; Jesus was healing a man with blindness, and he had to lay hands on him twice. Even Jesus who raises the Dead had to pray for healing twice. This shows us that it is ok if it takes a couple tries when you are speaking/praying healing over someone, this means there is no shame in taking a couple tries.
I am writing this on the second day of the CREW CONFERENCE.
In Exodus 38 & 39; Israel is building the Temple of God, and so much things are made of Bronze and Silver. In the Bible, Silver accually symbolizes: purity, redemption, and the refining of God’s work.
In Mark 7:14-23; Jesus says that it is not from what enters a person that defiles it, but what comes out of the person. And describes those things to be sin that’s in the heart.
Later in vv.35-37; Jesus heals someone who couldn’t hear well and could not speak l, and spits in his mouth and heals him.
Only Jesus can heal our pornographic addictions, our evil and sexual thoughts, our thoughts to cut ourselves, only he can deliver us from envy, form the evil desires and speech that comes from our hearts.
In Psalms 24:4-6; David sings to God and says; that those who have clean hands and a pure heart and does not rejoice in his heart or his emotions for things that are false, they will receive God’s blessing, and God’s righteousness. And it will also be with this Generations who seeks God’s face.
Take away: God wants to purify and strengthen this generation. He sees that we seek after God’s own heart, that we seek his face, which symbolizes his Presence, Favor, Glory, and Blessings. He seeks to purify and redeem us with the refining of God’s work. He wants to heal us from the evil desires of our hearts and what comes out of them. He wants to clean our hearts and purify them for the revival that will come from us and Gods power.
In Exodus 34:29; Moses was for so Long in God’s presence that his face shone because he was literally talking to God, and God’s Glory was on him.
In Mark 5; Jesus pretty much only did miracles in this chapter, but there was a woman who had a discharge for 12 years, and she touched his garment and she was healed. Jesus turned around and said to her, “Daughter, Your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease.” And to the man who was in charge of the synagogue, he said, “Do not fear, only believe.” And he revived his daughter from death.
Psalm 22:29; “All the prosperous of the earth eat and worship.” This means that they don’t even call work, “work”. But they call it Worship. That the work that they do is worship. That they don’t even consider it work, but it’s worship to God.
Take Away: God is telling me that He wants me to be more in his presence, that his glory would shine off of me all the time. And that way I can do healings because of his glory. He is telling me that My work is going to be worship. That I will go and heal people and it will be my Job. It will be my property.
In Mark 8, the passage when the disciples alongside Jesus, are in a boat and realizing that they forgot to get bread, something that stuck out to me, apart from Pastor Roman teaching about not realizing who’s in the boat with you, I feel as though Mark and Matthew, in this specific passage, purposely put in the phrase “forgotten to bring bread” because many times I’ve noticed, when I know God is my provider, I almost excuse the fact that He provides to that specific need I’m lacking, because I feel as though something I did caused it. Whether I forgot, lost, or failed at something, He is still faithful to provide during my shortcomings. And I believe that this is a process of renewing the mind, coming to the understanding that He’s actually a good Father, whether we mess up or not.
In Proverbs 4:23; Solomon is speaking to his son, and he is telling him how important it is for him to keep his words and rebukes in his heart, and in his sights. He mentions that from tbe heart flow tbe springs if Life; Meaning that you will live out what is in your heart. Like in what you say, eat, how you walk life, and treat others. And most importantly your relationship with God.
In Exodus 27-28; God is describing in detail how to build the Temple of God, and we can see how God desires to be closer to his people. He desires to be right there with his people.
In Mark 2:6-8; Jesus is in a house, and it is packed with people all the way out the door. They bring him a Paralytic, who can’t walk Z and Jesus tells him that his sins are forgiven. Then he perceives in his spirit that the Pharisees judged him for what he did. Then Jesus sees what’s in their heart, and he confronts them.
Take Away: God sees my heart, and he sees every sin that I commit. He sees every good desire I have, and every Bad desire that I have. He sees my thoughts when I’m looking at a girl, and the lust that sparks in my heart. He sees my desire for him, and my hate for sin. He sees my repentant heart, and my prideful moments. He sees everyone I am envious, and when I’m humble. He sees when I put something above him, and when something else takes of 1st place. But he still yearns to get closer to me, he still wants me to grow, he still would destroy the physical world for my soul (Psalm 18:6-24), That he would kill all of his creation for my safety. He himself chose to die, that I wouldn’t die.
In Mark 11:40-41; A man with leprosy comes to Jesus, and he kneels. He says to Jesus, “ If you will, you can make me clean.” And Jesus putting his hand on his shoulder, says, “I will, be clean.” And immediately the leprosy left him.
Take away: When I was reading this, a memory came over my mind, where me and my family used to live in an RV, with 7 people in a 5 person RV. And it was night and everyone was sleeping, while I was outside the RV, under the extendable roof. I was crying before God, and looking at the moon in between the crack of the tarp and the roof. And I was crying to God to forgive my sin, and that I wanted more of Him. And in this memory, I heard God say,
In Exodus 22-23; God revealed to Moses the Law and the covenant that he will declare over the people. Most of this Law and rules were that if someone steals, or kills, or breaks in, or hurts, he will have to pay tbe price in full or double or triple and so on. They had to pay back what they stole or hurt or damaged with their own belongings and their own possessions and hard work.
In Matthew 28; Jesus was judged and taken on the cross, he died for the sins of others, and he took on what we were supposed to pay. He payed our unplayable debt. He died for our debt, and transgressions, and sins, and iniquities.
Proverbs 4:9; Solomon speaks about lady wisdom and the wise words of his Father, he speaks about how lady wisdom will bestow a beautiful crown on your head.
Just as lady wisdom will put a beautiful crown on your head, so it gave Jesus the glorious crown of thorns. It gave him honor and praise for what he did. Wisdom will lead you to humility as onto the cross. Wisdom will lead you to go into your cross.
Day 45 · Leviticus 17–18 · Mark 14:32–72 · Psalm 30
In Leviticus 18:30; when God tells Moses that he would tell the Israelites to not do the abominable customs of those before them. That they may not be unclean.
God never wanted them to separate himself from his people. It breaks God’s heart when we separate him from us by sinning, because he always wants to be with us, and never wants to leave our side.
In Mark 14:72; Peter denied Jesus the 3rd time and the rooster crowed, and Peter recognized that Jesus said that he will deny him 3 times. And Peter dropped down and wept.
God sees every sin we will soon commit.
In Psalm 30:9-10; David sings to God, and he tries to convince God to not keep him in Sheol. And he tries to convince God and ask him if the dust of the earth will worship him and tell of his faithfulness.
Take Away: God wants me so bad that he doesn’t want me to sin that it would separate him from me. He sees me when I sin and put something above him. It breaks his heart to see me do something that will cause him to separate myself from him. His heart cries when I blame him for the consequences of my sins. And how I try to justify myself and save my self by trying to convince God like David who tried to ask God if the Dust will speak of his great faithfulness. He already proved to me that he would die for my sins to reconcile me to him, but I don’t always look on the him on the cross.
God said to me: Ruvim, I don’t ever want to leave your side. I never want you to sin. Every second that you are in sin, my heart is crying. For I see your greatness and your future. I can’t Live without you. I want you to be with me, and for you to want to be with me. I am not ashamed of you, I am proud to be your father. I am proud of you. Everyday I am amazed at the work you do that day, and your submission to my spirit. I am so amazed at the Faith you bring forth, and the righteous thoughts you want to have. That you repent every time you notice that you have put something above me. I am so amazed at your purity and your desire for me. Ruvim, I LOVE YOU ❤️!!! I Love you to be my son. I am crazy for you. I am crazy for the praise that I will get from you from the heart. I promise you that I Love you. Ruvim, I hear you, you are not 1,000 miles away.
Ruvim, I see when your heart drops because you’ve realized that you put something above me, I Love that about you. You are so sensitive to my spirit, and you hear my voice soo well, I love that about you. I Love that you notice things other people don’t notice. I Love how you just want to reflect me. I Love how you just want more of me.
Day 52 · Numbers 4 · Luke 3 · Proverbs 7
Numbers 4.7-8 is really cool seeing the table of the bread of the presence being covered by a blue covering, called tekheleth, which represents holiness and presence of God. Then on top of the covering they would throw on all the dishes and things used for the sacrifices, and they would then cover it with a scarlet covering.
Seeing this is cool because it’s like the table, or design that God set is covered in perfect holiness, and we have our sin, sacrifices, and offerings that restore but still contaminate us from being in Gods perfect design, kind of like man’s offerings. And then it gets covered by a scarlet covering, representing the blood, which covers us fully and makes us pure and holy, blameless and without shame.
Day 40 · Leviticus 6–7 · Mark 10 · Proverbs 5:15–23
In Mark 10:47-48; A blind man hears Jesus, and in his need he cries out to Jesus to have mercy and heal him. Many many people rebuked him, but he continued to yell out to Jesus. Then Jesus heard him and called out to him. And when people saw that Jesus heard him, they told him to take heart, or in other words to have Faith. And He left his cloak that was comforting him, and he left it behind and sprung up and jumped to God. And when Jesus replied, he kindly asked for him to heal him. And Jesus didn’t touch him but Jesus just congratulated him that his faith has brought him healing. And was healed right away.
Take away: I know that many of you are praying for healing from something or freedom from something. God is telling you guys to not listen to the rebukes or the doubt if other people who are trying to oppress you because of their shamefulness of their sin in themselves. They are scared that God didn’t answer their prayer, but will answer your prayer. For when God will answer your prayer and show his glory to you, people will tell you to take heart or to Have Faith. And you can just ask God and he will heal you and free you, and reveal himself to you. THIS IS A SIGN THAT GOD HAS ANSWERED THAT PRAYER. HAVE FAITH IN WHAT GOD HAS PROMISED.
GOD IS CONGRATULATING YOU FOR HAVING ENOUGH FAITH IN YOUR PRAYERS.
Day 38 · Exodus 40, Leviticus 1–2 · Mark 8 · Psalm 25
In Mark 8; Jesus was healing a man with blindness, and he had to lay hands on him twice. Even Jesus who raises the Dead had to pray for healing twice. This shows us that it is ok if it takes a couple tries when you are speaking/praying healing over someone, this means there is no shame in taking a couple tries.
Day 37 · Exodus 38–39 · Mark 7 · Psalm 24
I am writing this on the second day of the CREW CONFERENCE.
In the Bible, Silver accually symbolizes: purity, redemption, and the refining of God’s work.
Later in vv.35-37; Jesus heals someone who couldn’t hear well and could not speak l, and spits in his mouth and heals him.
Only Jesus can heal our pornographic addictions, our evil and sexual thoughts, our thoughts to cut ourselves, only he can deliver us from envy, form the evil desires and speech that comes from our hearts.
Take away: God wants to purify and strengthen this generation. He sees that we seek after God’s own heart, that we seek his face, which symbolizes his Presence, Favor, Glory, and Blessings. He seeks to purify and redeem us with the refining of God’s work. He wants to heal us from the evil desires of our hearts and what comes out of them. He wants to clean our hearts and purify them for the revival that will come from us and Gods power.
Day 35 · Exodus 34–35 · Mark 5 · Psalm 22:22–31
Take Away: God is telling me that He wants me to be more in his presence, that his glory would shine off of me all the time. And that way I can do healings because of his glory. He is telling me that My work is going to be worship. That I will go and heal people and it will be my Job. It will be my property.
Day 38 · Exodus 40, Leviticus 1–2 · Mark 8 · Psalm 25
In Mark 8, the passage when the disciples alongside Jesus, are in a boat and realizing that they forgot to get bread, something that stuck out to me, apart from Pastor Roman teaching about not realizing who’s in the boat with you, I feel as though Mark and Matthew, in this specific passage, purposely put in the phrase “forgotten to bring bread” because many times I’ve noticed, when I know God is my provider, I almost excuse the fact that He provides to that specific need I’m lacking, because I feel as though something I did caused it. Whether I forgot, lost, or failed at something, He is still faithful to provide during my shortcomings. And I believe that this is a process of renewing the mind, coming to the understanding that He’s actually a good Father, whether we mess up or not.
Day 32 · Exodus 27–28 · Mark 2 · Proverbs 4:20–27
Take Away: God sees my heart, and he sees every sin that I commit. He sees every good desire I have, and every Bad desire that I have. He sees my thoughts when I’m looking at a girl, and the lust that sparks in my heart. He sees my desire for him, and my hate for sin. He sees my repentant heart, and my prideful moments. He sees everyone I am envious, and when I’m humble. He sees when I put something above him, and when something else takes of 1st place. But he still yearns to get closer to me, he still wants me to grow, he still would destroy the physical world for my soul (Psalm 18:6-24), That he would kill all of his creation for my safety. He himself chose to die, that I wouldn’t die.
Day 31 · Exodus 25–26 · Mark 1 · Proverbs 4:10–19
In Mark 11:40-41; A man with leprosy comes to Jesus, and he kneels. He says to Jesus, “ If you will, you can make me clean.”
And Jesus putting his hand on his shoulder, says, “I will, be clean.” And immediately the leprosy left him.
Take away: When I was reading this, a memory came over my mind, where me and my family used to live in an RV, with 7 people in a 5 person RV. And it was night and everyone was sleeping, while I was outside the RV, under the extendable roof. I was crying before God, and looking at the moon in between the crack of the tarp and the roof. And I was crying to God to forgive my sin, and that I wanted more of Him. And in this memory, I heard God say,
“I will, my son Be clean.”
Day 30 · Exodus 22–24 · Matthew 28 · Proverbs 4:1–9
In Exodus 22-23; God revealed to Moses the Law and the covenant that he will declare over the people. Most of this Law and rules were that if someone steals, or kills, or breaks in, or hurts, he will have to pay tbe price in full or double or triple and so on. They had to pay back what they stole or hurt or damaged with their own belongings and their own possessions and hard work.
In Matthew 28; Jesus was judged and taken on the cross, he died for the sins of others, and he took on what we were supposed to pay. He payed our unplayable debt. He died for our debt, and transgressions, and sins, and iniquities.
Proverbs 4:9; Solomon speaks about lady wisdom and the wise words of his Father, he speaks about how lady wisdom will bestow a beautiful crown on your head.
Just as lady wisdom will put a beautiful crown on your head, so it gave Jesus the glorious crown of thorns. It gave him honor and praise for what he did. Wisdom will lead you to humility as onto the cross. Wisdom will lead you to go into your cross.